I feel as if I am falling into a hole. Or maybe I have been here this whole time and I am finally recognizing my surroundings. I don't know who I am.
I feel incredibly empty and alone. I feel as if I am surrounded by people who can't see me. Who can't see the real me, the me I hide behind artfully applied make-up. The me I hide behind this dead religion. the me that is screaming for real love and only receives a cheap imitation.
I need more thsn this. I need tobe fulfilled. I can't live with this gaping hole filled with emptiness.